something about being

disconcerted
disengaged
discontented
displaced
disconnected
distant

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This is my personal disaffection.

I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to live like I know what I’m leaving
I want a heart that I know is beating,
It’s beating,
I’m bleeding

And now you’re wondering -
Was peace just a temporary state?