we’re more alike than you might think

dear friend,
you flatter me. inspiration? thank you, but i can’t see why. i guess it is a new start, and honestly, it’s semi-refreshing, because it doesn’t feel like the usual facade you put up (or less than usual, anyway). like kurt vonnegut said, ‘we are what we pretend to be‘. i don’t really agree with him, but i think what we portray to others more or less becomes part of who we are, whether we realise it or not. remember when we just couldn’t work through honesty and transparency? i must admit, i gave up. couldn’t figure it out, so what else did i know to do but to let it slip through the cracks… it’s easier that way, isn’t it? your writing has become more polished over the years (but if you ever write a book, i will edit it for you), even though you never capitalise your letters and still leave out apostrophes (if anything, lack of apostrophes at the appropriate places irks me to bits). it’s much more refined and thoughtful, as if you’d spent several train rides sifting through the contents of your mind. it’s still beautiful in its own way, nonetheless. and it especially shines through when there’s an element of vulnerability and real honesty.

i think it’s my turn to feel like ‘fleeting fashion’ with you. funny how we can never really be on the same wavelength – one stops trying but the other keeps on going, and the cycle never stops. i wonder if we’d converge at the same point one day, free from the webs of our words. it’s what brings us together, but also what seems to divide us. let’s hope our capacity to love never stops growing – i mean, can you even reach the brink of love? so keep the good faith up – you never know who you’ll inspire.

(even though i suppose it isn’t about ‘inspiring’ per se, but fighting the right fights and running this race the best we can.)